My life has officially been struck by a category one hurricane named Healthy. I was born in Wilmington, N.C. and I’ve been through a few hurricanes. They can be short and sweet or long and destructive.
It is generally announced that a hurricane is brewing out in the ocean a week in advance to give people time to prepare for the worst. Likewise, I set my goals last week to consume only one Pepsi a day, pack my lunch and not use the vending machine, and to lose 2 pounds by Jan. 16.
Hurricane Healthy started stirring up trouble on Saturday night when I found myself standing in Dairy Queen trying to decide whether or not I wanted a Blizzard or a hot dog. Both are equally bad, but I didn’t see anything remotely healthy. I was also in a very uncomfortable situation where I didn’t want to have to explain that I was no longer eating unhealthy food while standing in line with other people. I mean really, a fat chick that doesn’t eat sugary food? So I gritted my teeth, and ordered a small Blizzard instead of the usual large. This was the only sweet treat I had during the week, and it wasn’t as fulfilling as it used to be.
I managed to avoid future sweet treat cravings including Pepsi by utilizing food-flavored lip gloss. Every time I craved or looked at something sweet and found myself wanting to lick my lips or salivating like a dog, I applied lip gloss. It may sound silly, but it works!
Sunday night I went grocery shopping, which seemed to take a long time and I ended up with a lot of food. So much in fact a man actually commented on it. Made me feel like a healthy piggy in a way even though I know he meant no harm. Normally when I bought that much food it would last a month, but with healthy food it won’t last long because I will have to eat more often and more of it to get my required calories.
By Monday the eye of the hurricane had arrived. I woke feeling refreshed and calm. Slightly hungry, yet still calm. I feel like I was more organized and productive at work. It was truly awesome because I normally feel like I have ADHD. I blame it on my creative personality, but I think it was actually the caffeine and sugar. I should have taken full advantage of the calm because it did not last long at all.
By Wednesday afternoon I was not feeling or acting so nice. I was super hungry even though I had been munching on my snacks from home, irritable and stuck at work. Therefore, I struggled with seeing sweet treats around the office and soda seemed to be in my face every time I turned around. The really cool part is I survived my first real challenge. I didn’t give in. My family does a great job in supporting me and shielding me from bad food. Society won’t, and they shouldn’t have to. If I want it bad enough, I’ll succeed regardless.
So I get home Wednesday night and I’m starving. I open up the microwavable plate that my mom was kind enough to set aside for me to find cantaloupe with cottage cheese taking up one of the side compartments. I can’t repeat what I said to myself, but I have never had fruit on my dinner plate, and I really didn’t want fruit when I was already hungry enough to gnaw my right arm off. I say my right because I’m left handed. It was an interesting experience, and I’ll get used to it along with the unsalted brown rice and the dry wheat bread that I tried this week as well.
On Thursday night in class, I got the opportunity to hold, or try to hold at least, both five pounds worth of fat and muscle. I couldn’t do it sitting down. I ended up rolling them along the table to the next person. It made me wonder how I will feel after losing 15 pounds. Small steps, but still exciting to think about.
I am pleased to report after my first week I am down 2.5 pounds, so the confusion, or destruction as it felt, in my life during the week was definitely worth it.
This week I will start working out at Rockingham Fitness Center. I hate working out, but I have absolutely no excuses because it’s super close to work, and though it may require losing some sleep due to my work schedule, I am lucky because they open at 5 a.m. Monday through Friday.
Sarah Mammarella, a registered dietician and the family and consumer sciences agent for the North Carolina Cooperative Extension at the Richmond County Agricultural Services Center in Rockingham, told us on Thursday night in our weekly meeting that when adding exercise “you gain before you lose” usually but not to get discouraged.
I really hope this doesn’t happen, but at least I know it will most likely get worse before it gets better, and I’m prepared. When I don’t want to work out or eat the fruit on my dinner plate, I will remember Sarah saying “I’m here to help you change your life … don’t waste my time, I won’t waste yours.”